The morning is like a religious part of my day. It can be formatted, and usually is. What can I say, kind of makes it a full day to start, .We live in a world that is eclectic, and we need some sort of format. The rest of the day well be that way. 

Life could get interesting if things go the way I hope. I might, and I use that loosly, get to retier soon. Its all up to the changes they make in the near future at my company.

Retire at some point

Retire is some thing that is all I need to focus on. Nothing else will matter at this time. Everyone I know is retired and they are doing great. I seem to be , but my numbers are not what they should be. I have other issues with this too. I have a son in jail, and he is getting accustom to the lifestyle of being taken care of and getting money to live a little better than nothing.

I'm not saying Jeremy would ever want to stay in there, but he isn't all that bad off. I could not even imagine what it could be like for months at a time. I do know that they don't need a lot of money to

New life to figger out

Well I need to contemplate my life now. I really don't have a clue how this is going to work. I have made new friends, and my family has changes for all the worse reasons. I cant let this go without some thought on what is happening, and how the future might play out. I have new bosses, and restructuring of my company.


Jeremy is in jail and could be there for over a year. He is at an age they won't really try very hard to rehab with. Same crime four times. I Don't have a clue.


I have a new boos, and really don't want to see what he has to offer. Can I wait for the 3 years. Can I even stay if they are paying me basically a little more that minimum wage. I know that at 18+ and hour that's not bad, but after 40 years, and minimum wage now 15, it just isn't fair.


Linda might be the plus in my life if she is in a home now.


Moving on now

Balance

Worked on the balance part of stress reduction. This is probably the hardest thing for me to undertake. I'm thinking that the calendar is what is needed. And in fact, Kaman makes sure the only way I can combine the calendar is with a phone. How ridicules' that is. Whenever is comes to difficult, Kaman has a way about them. They never want anything to be involved with their system, and they system is one of the hardest things I've worked with ever. Nothing is ever easy with the system they have. If I want to make a note, its can only be done on their system. Then there's the face that they don't want me to make any decisions about the territory I work. Pricing is in their hands. Inventory is in their hand. Contracts are a secret that me and the customer aren't allowed to know anything about. about. That's all I have to say about that.

Jail

Well, this is quite a situation that I will be thinking about for a long time. Jeremy is in jail and is going to b e there a long time. I need to think about what I'm going to do. I'm at a loss on this one. He will have no job, and absolutely nothing. I'll go over this in my head for a long time. I wont even be able to talk to him at over a dollar a minute. One call was $9 and could only have been a couple of minutes.

trouble

It can be over burdensome when someone/everyone always sees the fault with others. Just amazing that they will always blame someone else. I will never understand this for any reason.